Making Things NOT Happen

“I want to stay busy.”

“I’m not doing enough.”

“I need to be productive.”

These are constant things I hear and also tell myself on a daily basis when it comes to the projection of my self-worth. If I’m not doing something productive or if I’m not busy then I feel like I’ve become a disgusting slob for that day. The more slob like days I have, the more I want to rip my shirt into many pieces: I hate not being productive.

But, in time I’m learning that there is a big difference between productivity, staying busy, doing enough, and actually making things happen. What do I mean?
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The Only Way Out is Through

The Only Way Out is Through – Robert Frost

I was talking to one of my (gambling anonymous) sponsors the other day and I was telling him that I was having difficulty getting through the day without thinking about gambling. Living with an addiction that you’re trying to get rid out of your system is very arduous. Not being able to gamble might be easy for others, for me it’s like getting a mosquito NOT to fly towards a bright light.

Almost impossible.

And –

Los Angeles has a ton of Casino Lights that seduce me while I’m driving to and from work on the freeway. My head and hands sweat as my brain is trying to thinking of excuses to exit the freeway and SPRINT into the casino.

I really want to stop Gambling because it’s not only going to ruin me financially, but it’s also going to ruin the potential I currently have: am I willing to risk the rest of my 20s – MY LIFE – on cards?

So I called my sponsor and began to tell him how I wanted to pounce to the casino: the URGE IS SO STRONG. It’s weird it was like the casino was calling my brain to visit her. I was actually in pain because I wasn’t visiting her. You could say it felt like a bad breakup. I was venting these thoughts to my sponsor when he said, “Jonathan – The Only Way Out is Through.”

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Marathon vs Sprinting

It’s strange.

In the past I’ve helped (or managed) YouTube channels whose videos have gotten hundreds / if not millions of views. And, recently I did a video that grew to around 2,000+ views (still climbing) organically – and I’ve never ever felt so excited in my life! It could be because i) I wasn’t expecting these amount of views. ii) It grew organically (didn’t do any spamming on other channels). iii) It’s my own.

If you haven’t seen the video, here it is:

Anyway, this post is about Marathon vs. Sprinting…
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Surround Yourself With Smarter People: For The Entrepreneur

Surround yourself with people who are smarter than you, people who you can bounce off ideas with, and people who are there to motivate you till the very end.

It’s been three months since I’ve been out of a job and in the process I’ve been looking for other opportunities to keep me going. The time has been spent traveling from North to South California to even random places, like Utah. I’ve been able to interact with a variety personalities in the YouTube space and startups.

This whole ordeal has led me to one conclusion: I need to surround myself with people who will get me to work. This is basically my issue is that I’ve been able to get out of bed and start working. You can see this as a sad thing but I’m unable to work alone. I love working an office. I love working with people who I can talk to about my ideas and here the projects they’re working on – this keeps me on my toes. And, I’m taking this philosophy not only for my own personal work, but also to the people who I work with (interns).

For example, I’ve now left my girlfriend in Northern California (staying long-distance) because the peer group I need to be at is in LA. And, I just purchased a plane ticket for my intern so I can start working in LA over the summer.

I believe the biggest investment you can make are the people you surround yourself with: you can do things yourself, but it’s always great to get second opinions on things because it can only make your work better. Also, it’s always great to have people who also believe in your projects because that in itself will make you make more.

I’m saying that you should be doing the same thing.
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Celebrate The Small Wins: Analyzing Thought Catalog Pieces

I’m writing right now because I’m a little stressed at the moment. I think one of the biggest reasons I’m stressing is because I’m unable to complete my latest vlog.

I’m trying to figure out how to integrate a bunch of the days to make it not boring. It’s bothering me as I keep editing and re-editing scenes – trying to make a story of some sort.

The ability to not finish this task is making me realize all the other unfinished things I have at the moment. In addition, my lawyer just said today,

“Time flies really fast man, I hope you’re getting your shit together. You better not be homeless by the end of the year.”

Then, I have my family and my partner subtly breathing down my neck all because they’re going through financial strain (need help. I believe I’m the source to help). Usually in these circumstances I go out and I gamble because it’s just a way to relieve stress. However, it’ll just create more stress in the long run because losing money won’t really help my cause.

Therefore I’m writing.

This article will be what I need to feel like I at least got something done, which will just ease my mind and help me complete my other tasks (momentum). Yes, I’m writing that you too can help clear your own mind and de-stress from the craziness by appreciating your small wins.

What do I mean? Let me explain.
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