Not Everyone Is A Winner (How It’s Affecting My Decision To Run A Company)

Recently I read an article by Daniel Negreanu, a world-renowned poker professional, who through his analysis of critiquing another poker player’s view on the game said,

Truth is, most of you reading this, will be lifetime losers at poker. You are unlikely to become successful professional poker players. It is available to all of you, and some of you will find success at the tables, but the truth is clear: most of you will fail. Sucks huh?”

Either it’s because I’m listening to alternative emotional rock music or my meds are not kicking in correctly, but I really resonate with that paragraph. The idea to hear a top poker professional tell the world that most of us… or in this case reminding me – that I AM NOT or will ever be a winning player – floored me in a position where I don’t want to gamble anymore. Why? because he’s fucking right.

I have / had this weird psychological fucked-up mindset where I could be a winning player in poker. I’m going to be honest, as I’ve said many times before – I’m not a winning play in poker.

I have an addictive gambling personality that I will keep playing for hours upon days upon weeks until I lose everything. I’ve said this before but gambling has ruined a big portion of my life.

I feel like crying. In fact I have cried about this already but I wish I never ever took up cards. It’s not even about the money, it’s just about the time of my life that I gave away in the process of playing cards. Anyway, I’m not here to repeat what I said in my gambling article. I want to tell you that “not everyone is a winner.” No matter how far you come, no matter how hard you work, no matter what you do… many times (sometimes) you just won’t win.

Here we go…
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26 Rules To Live By From An Unsuccessful 26 Year Old

Hey Ya’ll. Even though I wrote this originally for Thought Catalog (you can see all my other type of writings there). I want to make sure you didn’t miss it so I’m republishing it here. I hope you enjoy this piece. 

This is inspired by one of my mentor’s post a year before.

I just turned 26 and I’m going to be honest with you. I do not have everything figured out. I’m still traveling, searching, struggling, and fighting hard to accomplish the goals I’ve set for myself. I am not a millionaire, a hundred thousandnair, or infamous. Almost every great opportunity I have had has led to a downhill battle, or is still pending in results, due to my inability to make the right choices.

Simply, I’m an unsuccessful 26 year-old.
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