The Trials of Being a Writer (Part 2)

A few days ago I told ya’ll the struggles a writer faces every single day.

In the post I told you that I would update you in regards to a Thought Catalog article I was writing: the assignment was to NOT think of writing a viral piece but rather writing a piece for myself. A writing piece that was polarizing to my my beliefs without the worry for a mass appeal. (Regardless how small the group, I was writing to please myself and the people who share my same values. Basically, exactly the same way how I write in this blog).

It was the best thing I did because the piece was really easy to write! It did take me a few hours to make sure the piece was polished, but at least I wasn’t having a headache (or a tantrum) trying to figure out what to write. I’m happy: you can view it here.

I’m even happier with the number of views, shares, and comments! I swear, it feels good to have something published again. This entire process was very insightful and I’m writing this post to share what I learned.

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The Trials of Being a Writer (Part 1)

Being a writer is really tough because many times you’re wasting valuable moments of your life… writing. For example, I wrote 40,000 words, from the summer of 2013 to the end of 2014, on a potential novel I’m putting together. Unfortunately, after reviewing it I realize that I hate the first half of the book. I’m going to rewrite the first part altogether and it will probably take 8 months to complete this task.

In addition, yesterday I tried writing a new Thought Catalog piece (to get back on the horse to accomplish my 2015 writing goals) and I realized that after 5 hours of writing the piece led nowhere. There wasn’t enough examples, it wasn’t concrete enough, the idea was there but it didn’t have substance. Thought Catalog is all about relationship, love, millennial (generation y) catharsis, and stories involving love / relationships. And, my piece was far removed from being a hit.

It hurts because sometimes I just feel like I’m wasting my time. I will say that it’s really easy to write on this blog because the audience are people who already know me. It’s not for the masses, it’s for you, the 30ish people who read this blog everyday (haha. I know. So small). Last month I only had 800 unique visitors who scrolled through my site. Once I thought it to be pathetic that I averaged so little viewers.

But now I feel it a good thing because we’ve become a close nit group of people who aren’t really judging me in a negative light. You are all here to read my personal journey in life. In fact, there are even a few consistent commenters who I’ve actually reached out to via email or some other social media channel. So, thank you. Thank you to the ones reading and commenting. It means a ton.

I will say I’ve gotten a few haters (whose comments were quite hurtful) but that’s okay. It’s more love than hate here. Again, thank you.

As I write this piece I’m realizing why it’s so easy to write here than for Thought Catalog (and my novel). It’s because I don’t care what others think of what I’m trying to say here. I know the ones reading are the ones who like me and the ones who don’t know me just don’t give a fuck and won’t comeback. I’m not trying gratify the masses… just you.

Hmmm.

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The NO SEX Challenge: The Best Motivation to Complete Your Goals?

I think I’m fortunate to have a partner who reciprocates the need and want for sexual intercourse. However, I realize that my availability to coitus has made it impossible for me to accomplish the goals I’ve set for myself this year.

Am I saying that sex is a distraction? Yes. The copulation between my partner and I have led to my own unproductive habits. This is why I’ve decided to try out the NO SEX challenge. There are countless others, like David Asprey (author of Bulletproof), who have participated in this endeavor. If they can do it and succeed. why can’t I?

Of course his was a 30 day challenge.

Mine is NO SEX until I accomplish my goals.

I’m not going to lie but I actually tried this feat a week ago and… I failed. She even said, “are you sure you want to do this?” HELL YEAH! I even made an excuse, “I worked really hard this week… it’s okay.” Then, the moment happened. 😀

Yes, I failed. I cheated. And, I don’t feel bad because it was a great experience (we just connect). However, I’m stuck at the same place again where I’m no closer to accomplishing my goals for this year. This is why I’m going to restart this challenge, but I’m going to do a few different things so that way I don’t fail. Let me explain…

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What It’s Like Being A Manic Depressant

I’m a manic depressant.

Manic Depression is a genetic mental disorder that can be best described to be related to an individual who is bipolar and who also has post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Like any (genetic) mental disorder, mania is triggered through events that carry overtime.

This means that at any moment, without warrant, I can plunge into a feeling of depression. Or, in another moment my brain can catapult into a high. In this post, I’ll talk about what depression feels like, what the high does to me, and what the pills do to my body… Let me explain:

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