My Disease Called Gambling

I have a gambling problem.

I’m writing this because I find if I make this issue public I’ll be able to get a better grip of my problem. It’s not only a need – I WANT to stop this horrible habit because it is ruining me financially.

I know I would be about $100,000 richer and done more productive-meaningful things in my life (time wasted) if I didn’t gamble.

It is SUPER CRUCIAL that I must stop this time because I’m starting my own business venture this summer. Every cent I spend must be spent wisely towards a business purchase / decision. I am fortunate that, till September 2014, I will have steady income being deposited into my bank account.

However afterwards – gulp.

Therefore, I am telling you that I have a gambling problem. I’m going to tell you my story of why I got into it, what it has destroyed, and how I will fix it altogether. I hope sharing this will help anyone else who is dealing with compulsive disastrous habit(s) / disease(s) such as gambling.

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Money

The money I’m receiving (monthly payment) is a little late and it’s bugging me. I’m doing my best to stay patient, but I have a few medical bills I need to pay this coming Monday. In addition,  I just paid my taxes (XX,XXX). You could say I’m running a bit low. Thank god I’ve been budgeting but it means I have to be very very careful this weekend: if I go over my budget – uh oh. I do not want to dip into my emergency funds.

I’m currently with my girlfriend and she can see it on my face that I’m worried about the coming week. It’s annoying her because my attitude isn’t as energetic as usual. It happens.

I recently am budgeting everything by hand (in a notebook) and if I ever receive my check, I’m going to setup exactly the amount of money I need for NEXT month’s expenses. I think you should plan to do this – the more months you’re ahead for your next month’s expenses = you will never go broke.

It’ll be good to be one ahead.

There is this saying that 80% of Californian’s live paycheck to paycheck. I hope to not fall under this 80%. But, I’m headed there – I’ve been there – and I’m scared I’ll be there soon.

I’m stressed. But, I think I’ll be fine and here is why:
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