Acceptance

It’s 4am. I can’t sleep. I need to write.

I’m not going to lie, I was going to write a blogpost called “Being a Superstar Is the Biggest Lie Companies Tell You to Be”

There is a mantra that floats around startup culture and corporate America in general… “if you don’t own the company, you should work late, outwork your co-workers, soak up soak up knowledge from others. Be the positive energy, make good contacts, and be the person ppl remember. Make the most out of it – grow.”

What I’ve learned these last year and four months is this…

I find that mantra to be filled with lies.

Much of what was said doesn’t matter.

If you don’t fit in the company’s culture or if you subtly irk someone at the top, at the wrong time, in the wrong way… you’re gone. Working hard, staying late, being a positive energy to others doesn’t matter. I believe working hard is part of it, but what’s really important is fitting the company culture, having a great communicative relationship with the people who can let you go, play the correct politics, and you’ll stay.

Also here are a few other things I’ve learned from last year:

  1. Save. You can be gone at any moment. Therefore, prepare for the worst because you should never think your job is secure. Unless you own the company, your job isn’t secure.
  2. Trust no one. I love many of my co-workers, even the person that let me go… I’ve learned a lot from them, I learned a lot about them, and I’ve given them a lot of myself to them. However, with that said, I’ve learned you can’t trust anybody. You are a team, but at the same time you must be able to take a step back and live a different life outside of your co-working space.
  3. Learn to control my manic depression & PTSD a little better. I don’t know how I can do this part, but I do think a lot of what happened was due to how I dealt with my mental issues. Though I never blamed my mental health issues on bad work performance… I did have strange spurts of creative energy that would go in waves. Others can’t handle it sometimes.

My personality is not for everybody. I think people who really get me can undertake my child-like wonderment. There is a reason why my interns and other creatives stick by me and give me their best work … and it’s not because of money. I have none.

I believe they stick by me and give me 150% of their time because people who are young at heart, people who are truly creative, understand that there might be something special and genuine in my brain.

Woah. Isn’t the title of this post called Acceptance?

Alright, let me get back on track and talk about Acceptance.

Though, I will admit, writing everything above is helping me deal with everything I’m going through at the moment. Let me explain…

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Private Thoughts – Laid Off

I don’t know.

Sometimes I write my professional thoughts here: tutorials and theories all related to how anyone can grow their brand on social media. This means I’ve written case studies about how to create viral organic Facebook posts all the way to creating viral ads. I wrote  these articles to tell random in-bound business folk  what I’ve accomplished… making me seem as if I know what I’m doing in the direction of my career.

However, I think I’m done writing tutorials and theories here on this blog. I’ll write all of that mumbo jumbo “smarty-pants” lingo on where it belongs… I’m saying if you want “knowledge” then head to my LinkedIn.

From now on, I’m using this blog as more of a place to calm myself. This is where I’ll continue to talk about relationships, my own mental health, car accidents, family matters, and anything that just needs to be said… for me.

It’s what I used to do and it is the one thing I miss doing. I haven’t written just for myself, with no regard of what others thought, in a very long time.

No filter. I’m writing for me today.

I got laid off recently: not fired… laid off.

It hurt.

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Being Genuine

It’s close to midnight as I write this piece…

This afternoon I was climbing a  mountainous rock when a loose fragment came apart and fell on my index finger: it’s hilarious to see my index finger bleeding internally. Therefore, I’m in a bit of a conundrum as the lack of feeling to my finger is slowing down my writing process. I’m unable to bring word from thought fast enough and I’m at a point where I have so many things I want to write about.

Excuses. Though valid, they’re still excuses.

Anyway, there is something on my mind right now that relates to everything I’m trying to accomplish: completing my novel, establishing an online writing presence, doing well on YouTube, making sure my podcast episodes are heard by the thousands, and of course, all of these things coming together to establish a brand that influences many.

But Why? And, How?

Let’s start with why…

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