I was watching a Buzzfeed Short about unhealthy relationships and I couldn’t help but to think of my relationship with my ex. For reference, here is the link to the video and I suggest you watch it because it’s powerful:
A few days ago, I received a different type of letter. This student had an inquiry about the fears of rejection & how to accept rejection. It couldn’t come at a better time (b/c I’m going through a failed project at the moment) & thought it would be best to write my response through a post.
Letter from The Wonderful Student in Florence:
Kathryn – this blogpost is for you! Alright, let’s start this thing!
Before I begin I want to say I received a wonderful comment from my last post. Here it is:
I really needed this comment (thank you Kirsten) because the video she is talking about, the current video I posted this morning, was one of the hardest shoots I’ve ever done in my entire life: it took over 2.5 months to conceptualize the idea, 4 weeks to shoot (4 days of shooting), spent over $500 to make it happen, had audio issues on two days, camera issues on the next, got kicked out of a campus on the last day of shooting (unusable UCSD footage), and it took over 35 hours of editing because I had four different ways of telling the video’s story.
I persisted because the idea is NOT just about one video. It’s about two. But, we’ll get to that at the end of this post.
“Jonathan, working full-time here means you cannot work on any of your side projects. You can no longer uber, you can no longer do YouTube, you can no longer work on anything else but PlayTable.”
I sat there listening to my friend’s words and my heart sank. I’ve known him since 2009, been working with him on many projects since 2011, and since late 2014, started the journey of working on this new project that led me from LA to the Bay Area. This current project is called, PlayTable.xyz. It’s an all-in-one board game console, which can play every single board & card game in the world: we’re creating the soul for board & card games everywhere.
“As a friend, I understand your situation. But, as the CEO of this company I need you here all the time.” I replied asking if I could get one day off to work on my side projects. “No. Jonathan, we’re crowdsourcing in 5 months. I need you here.”
He gave me a weekend to think about my decision. I sent him an e-mail last Monday and apologized. Yes, I decided to not work with PlayTable in the capacity expected of me, and I’ll tell you why I made the decision…
It’s 5:37 am in the morning and I’m rushing this post because I’m headed out to help a friend with her commercial shoot. She needs someone to reserve a public tennis court & I answered her call! I believe Karen (friend) is an amazing individual who produces magnificent works and I will always support her endeavors.
Helping Karen, is in reality, helping myself because I learn so much when I work with her. In addition, I’m in need for some tennis. Anyway, where was I going with this post? Oh. Smiles.